Processing things from long ago, before I ever knew Him...
Some things are painful. Some things I'd rather forget.
It's made me question, "Why, Lord? Why did those things occur? Where were You?"
In a time of prayer and worship this week, He answered me.
"Right there. I was right there. I knew you even then."
My response was embarrassment. "What? You were there? You KNOW? You saw?"
"Yes, I saw. I loved you then. And I love you now, KNOWING."
What I'm realizing is that our relationship didn't start in 1996, like I've always thought. This was when I came to know Him. But, He already knew me.
It may anger some, the fact that God will witness tragedy. He will witness abuse. He will witness injustice. But, I trust in Him. I know that people are people and people sin. This world isn't perfect. We have free will and sometimes that means that people are people and people sin.
I am comforted by the fact that He was near. Even in the midst of my sin. Even in the midst of the hurtful sins of others. He was near. He has always been near. He knows about all of my junk and He still loves me. He still pursues me. This amazes me.
"Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you, before you were born I set you apart."
Jeremiah 1:5
Be comforted in Him today. Love you Andrea, Mary
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing, i can relate and sooo respect what you are going through. Isn't it Great to feel Gods love and to know that when no one else was there and we thought we were alone..God was there and we were not alone:)
ReplyDeleteAndrea, great post! Revelations 1:8 says "I am the Alpha and the Omega," says the Lord God, "who is, and who was, and who is to come, the Almighty." Beth Moore, in her Revelations Bible Study says this scripture reminds us that He is now with us, he was with us in our past, and he is with us in the future. That is comforting. The I AM, the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. What a good God we serve!
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