It's not that I don't have anything to say. It's more that as soon as I think I want to say it, something else comes up.
Like the stomach virus that's going through our house right now.
Or the extra-curricular activities that seem to have overtaken my life, my schedule, my sanity. I said that I would never overbook us. I don't think we're overbooked, but somehow we've ended up with all 5 kids in activities. It wasn't intentional, and it won't last forever, but it sure is taking up a lot of my time and energy!
At the beginning of this year, Brad and I set aside a week to pray through our goals for the year. I left that week feeling like I should focus my time and energy on our family. Not that this is unusual for me, but I feel the Lord is asking for more. More focused prayer time for my husband and my children. More time at home, focused on the things of home. Less time away, focusing on other things (which are good things, just not for me. Right now)
I settled in to this challenge.
Then this past week, my "settling" felt challenged. It seems there is one need after another...right here in my own home. I think most of these needs are always here, but could it be that I'm more sensitive to them? They seem to be screaming at me. The needs, not my children. Ok, my children sometimes. But mostly the needs.
One needs more individual attention. One needs help dealing with friends. One needs help with eating a complete meal. One needs to sleep past 4:30 in the morning (already!!). They all need more of me.
It can be draining. And frustrating. It can make me feel helpless. And like "what ever made me think I could do this?"
So, I wake up early. I turn on the fire and make a pot of coffee. I read. I pray (I put said child back to bed). And I pray more. Then as they wake, I put on my brave face and a smile. I thank Him for these 5 precious blessings. And head into another day...
God never gives you more than you can handle. You are a princess of the most high God! He gives you strength when you are weak. You are an amazing wife and mother and you were given 5 blessings for a reason. One day they will be grown and moved out and you will look back on these days and remember all that you did and all that you were to them and you will thank Jesus for entrusting you with such a precious and challenging and rewarding job. Be blessed today and may the Lord refill your cup so you overflow.
ReplyDelete-Traci B.
Thank you for sharing your heart with us. You are an amazing women. Praying that you get some time to yourself even if its just a bit. To take care of YOU. Love you lady. You are a great mother to your little ones :)
ReplyDeleteThe old Army commercial used to say "Its the toughest job you'll ever love." I'd say that definitely applies to parenting! But the truth is, when I think about what impact I want to make in this life, raising my children well is the most important thing. I want them to be kind, loving and wise people who love the Lord with all their hearts and I know you do,too. You'll never regret the time you've spent with them!
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